So I keep having these outbursts where I feel I need to write, so, Imma start blogging again...
I'm so incredible stuffed inside of illness. I seem to NEVER be well, There comes a point when people look at you and think- this girl is constantly moaning and attention seeking. It annoys me alot. However, I suppose I do understand where their coming from, I would do the same.
I'm in serious need of some new clothes, I say this a lot then dont bother to save to buy anything decent I wither it away on random things I dont need and cinema and town trips with friends, which I always enjoy but, I reeeally do need to start thinking about my wardrobe.
I've now realised sometimes life puts you in unfortunate confusing situations, and I think it might be to test how you handle them. It's become apparent that I, handle these... badly.
I'm currently the glue to my family. I'm holding them all together, and due to certain members of my family not appreciating this, its putting extreme pressure on everyone. I thought being the strong one would be easy, I thought, I'm good with this, I can give advice, I can keep calm and collected. How. Wrong. Was. I? It's TOO hard, and although I know that my family would completely understand this. I refuse to give in and tell them.
I'm only 16 and I find myself feeling like some situations are the end of the world. People make me FEEL like situations are the end of the world.
I feel sometimes like you can't truly trust anyone, once someone betrays my trust once, I loose all confidence in them.
I want to have a clone of myself in someone else's body, So I can give myself my own advice, And I know that I won't tell anyone. That's my problem, I advice other people, but I don't use that advice myself.
Today I literally blobbed on the sofa, spoke to the doctor, apparently I have flu of the bird kind. :( !!!!!
I might not be accepted back into college.. As I have been off for 7 weeks with Kidney Stones and Laryngitis.. And they don't think I'll be able to catch up on the work even though I'm determined. But how annoying, what on EARTH am I supposed to do if they don't take me back, with a bit of luck they can advice me on the best steps to take I REALLY don't want to go to totton.
I suppose that's all I'll write today.
Promise to write everyday.
New Years Resolution?
