partypartypartyparty ♥

well last night was fucking amusing. what i can remember of it anyway.
We started off at Hannah's having a laugh and what have you...
got signed out of school- got our prom tickets :)
so now have officially left school- WOOP!
So, at Hannah's i had a 2L bottle of strongbow (my man's drink)
downed like a litre of it- felt fine...
topped it up..
stuck it in my little bag and started walking to deadman's...
so i've got this huge bottle of strongbow hanging out my bag and we get to tesco express and everyone is looking at it...
I didn't get it taken off me...
luckily, there weren't any police ;)
got to deadmans eventually and there was like no one there-
except will best was just led in his own puke ALREADY!
I was like wtf- it's like 7 o' clock and you've already chundered...
then people started turning up and i got wankered.
don't remember much else except walking home with a cone on my head-
then Corey took it away and put it ontop of the sargeants van in DP.... :(
woke up this morning with a swollen knee, a headache, a stomach that felt like I'd done about 400 situps and a LOAD of texts on my phone that i dont recall sending..
but after hearing the stories today i hear i had a brilliant night :L
apart from i do remember a copper shining a fucking flashlight in my face... :/
so we got back to Hannah's and i crashed...
now tonight i'm going to rest my head before the party at hannah's tomorrow night :)
Byesiess xxx

well.

even though i feel like a piece of shit today-
I'm feeling happy :)
i hate fathers day, and how ironic was it that i was to argue with my dad today.
hmmmm,
I'm loving quite a few songs at the moment-
Hey, soul sister
Dancing on my own
Airplanes
Kickstarts
that is all.
Today made me wish i could rewind a year...
There are soo many things I would do differently
sooooo different.
i'd like bernards watch actually.
raaaaaaaaaaaah.
i've been in bed all day today.
I really should go out tomorrow :)
okay. this was weird. bye x

wooooo... ? ^o)

mood-downfall

so the past couple of days have been crazy. Eyeopening really, but my mood has gone from happy to confused to sad to angry and then kind of back to the old charlie, none of the above emotions, just plain old me. First things first someone popped at me, i guess i was just being me, pushy or whatever but all i was trying to do is be there for someone, because i never feel like there is anyone there for me, and i hate it. So i thought if i make sure he knows i'm there it'll take away the initial feeling of selfishness for me. Because i load my problems on him. but boy was i wrong that was the worst thing to do because now we're not talking. So that made me kind of upset because i really enjoyed talking to him. But i guess there isn't anything i can do now. Then the same day literally an hour after this i found out that three close family members are critically ill, this made me think that lives to short to give your everything to one person just enjoy yourself and make everyday count. Now i've got all week of exams ahead of me, shit. I'm so ill prepared its unbeliable. I got really angry yesterday because i was informed of some things that my dad has done in the past, not good things. It made me really angry with him but i guess its in the past, i forgive easily unless its something really bad. And i'm not finding it easy to forgive him. Anyway on a brigter note i guess- i'm being a model for a prom photo shoot today then i've been asked to be a model for a fashion show on thursday so that should take my mind off all this crap. Went to get another piercing yesterday and gave up after 4 shops and 5 hours but the mother got a tattoo for her birthday so shes happy. Thats all i guess xx

...

i'm so bored, my life is boring. I want something interesting to happen, something i can get exited about. :/ too much to ask? Thought so...One thing that sticks out to me in my whole life is that, because it belongs to me and you know i'm my own person in my body, why can't i change my feelings and things? Takes the piss. Okay thats all because i'm on my phone. I can't sleep i'm just led in bed listening to music thinking about everything so my mind is too busy to sleep. great. :( xxx

Yesssss....

success-
so I choreograph for a street team, and I took over from my old teacher because I was in the team but Shaun had to move back to his country so me and this boy called derek took over...
Well anyway we'd been working on this routine for weeks and they had a competition today in blackpool tower ballroom and have just phoned me with the best results I'm sooo proud..
1st out of 15
then 17th out of 52.
the second on doesn't sound that good but I'm still extremely proud :)
Thats the only good news I got today.
I'm sooo bored, I think I'd rather be at school if I'm honest.
I feel like I want to laugh till I nearly pee?
I haven't laughed really hard in ages..
Jokes don't make me laugh that much anymore, I have to be with someone I think,
laugh till I get stitch :D

Okay,
bored now.
again.
as usual.
imma annoy someone by text ;)
xxx