mood-downfall

so the past couple of days have been crazy. Eyeopening really, but my mood has gone from happy to confused to sad to angry and then kind of back to the old charlie, none of the above emotions, just plain old me. First things first someone popped at me, i guess i was just being me, pushy or whatever but all i was trying to do is be there for someone, because i never feel like there is anyone there for me, and i hate it. So i thought if i make sure he knows i'm there it'll take away the initial feeling of selfishness for me. Because i load my problems on him. but boy was i wrong that was the worst thing to do because now we're not talking. So that made me kind of upset because i really enjoyed talking to him. But i guess there isn't anything i can do now. Then the same day literally an hour after this i found out that three close family members are critically ill, this made me think that lives to short to give your everything to one person just enjoy yourself and make everyday count. Now i've got all week of exams ahead of me, shit. I'm so ill prepared its unbeliable. I got really angry yesterday because i was informed of some things that my dad has done in the past, not good things. It made me really angry with him but i guess its in the past, i forgive easily unless its something really bad. And i'm not finding it easy to forgive him. Anyway on a brigter note i guess- i'm being a model for a prom photo shoot today then i've been asked to be a model for a fashion show on thursday so that should take my mind off all this crap. Went to get another piercing yesterday and gave up after 4 shops and 5 hours but the mother got a tattoo for her birthday so shes happy. Thats all i guess xx